Nicholas - 2 months old

Nicholas went for his two month check up today. Dr. Klocke said he is perfect. He weighed 13 lbs 15ozs and is 24 1/2 inches long. He has definitely grown A LOT since we brought him home. He is now in the 90th percentile in height and weight. He is eating well :) We are dealing with some reflux issues but who doesn't, right? I just think that spitting up comes with the territory. It isn't that bad so fortunately no medication is needed.

He had to get two shot today too. I think they were harder on me than on him. He was such a trooper. He cried for about 30 seconds and stopped. His slept alot today but other than that has been an angel. No crankiness, thank God. As we speak, he is talking to me trying to get my attention. I love his little coos especially once I look at him and start talking. He gets soooo excited. I an definitely taking in every moment. I can't believe two months have already gone by... My newborn is gone...I already miss it, but I am looking forward to what's to come. It is so rewarding to watch them grow ... Looking forward to more smiles.... :)

My Three Boys

In all of my wildest dreams, I never thought that I would have three sons. I am such a girls girl. What do I know about raising boys, right? Well, it has definitely been an adventure... Each one of my boys has taught me something different and I love being on this journey with them.

Anthony: My firstborn. You taught me about endless love. You inspire me in ways you could never imagine. Watching you grow up has been amazing. You are able to walk into a room of strangers and have friends in minutes. You are not afraid of change and is always up for a challenge. You seem to be good at everything you put your mind to, be it school, basketball baseball, whatever... I love the drive you have. You have such a kind heart and are very generous.

Evan: My old soul in a 6 year olds body. You are such a good boy, always looking to do the right thing to please us. Always a joy to be around. You might start of shy at first but once you get comfortable you have a sense of humor like no other. You are the spitting image of your father from you head to your toes. You are so loveable. You are also determined. Once you put your mind to something you give it your all....I wish I had your determination.

Nicholas: My little angel...You may only be two months old but you have stolen our hearts. You have taught me that my heart has the capacity to grow endlessly. You are an amazing child and are definitely what we were missing. You have completed our family. I look forward to watching you grow....

To all three of my boys, my life would mean nothing without you.... You continue to inspire me and challenge me to be the best mom I can be to you. I never knew how rewarding motherhood could be until I had you three. I am blessed and honored to have you and will never take a day for granted. I will always be there to support, comfort and love you.... I love you to the moon and back :)

Simple Joys

My little boy will be 2 months old tomorrow. I just don't know where the time goes. I have enjoyed every minute of getting to know him. He is a JOY :) My heart is filled with so much love that sometimes I feel like it might burst. I thank God every day for all the blessings in my life. I might not have the finest of material things but I truly fell like I am the richest woman on Earth. All of my dreams have come true with all the boys in my life.

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Is it possible to mourn something that you never had? My husband and I were blessed with two beautiful sons. Both of us had also wanted a daughter. Last summer we decided to try for that "daughter". We were again blessed to find out that we were pregnant on our first try. We were so excited. We started dreaming what our lives would be like with the daughter that we always wanted. We were so certain that the baby I was carrying was a girl. We even named her, Marissa. She would be the perfect addition to our family. She would have two big brothers to watch over her and two parents that would adore her. What could be better than that? Well, God had other plans for us.

At our 18 week sonogram, we found out we having another boy. In that moment, I am not going to lie, I felt a sense of loss. Both of us had decided that this baby would be our last. We would not be having a little girl.

I always thought I was meant to have a daughter. I am a girls girl. I always dreamed of shopping for the perfect baby girl clothes and playing with barbies with my little girl. There would be dancing and cheerleading and boys to talk about. When she was older, I would help her pick out her wedding dress and help her when she had her own babies. See in my mind daughters always need their mothers even when the grow up. Boys tend to leave there mothers a bit when they grow up. I also grieved for my husband because he wanted a daughter so badly. He wanted to have "Daddy's little girl"

Don't get my wrong, I was very grateful for being told that we were have a healthy baby boy. He was beautiful even if it was just a sonogram picture.

I got over my loss pretty quickly two once I felt my little one kick inside me. He was our little man and we were blessed to have him. God knows what he is doing. I am good at raising boys. I am their cheerleader, their mommy and even though boys might leave their mothers later on, they certainly love their mommy now so I am going to take that in for as long as they will let me.

Nicholas has completed our family. He is such a joy to have and I can not imagine my life without him... so even though I still feel the loss from time to time, I am truly content with the family that we have created.