Our summer trip to Allegany State Park....
Monday, September 5, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
The UGLY Truth
I sometimes catch my kids saying that they wish they were older. My 7 year old wants to be as old as his bigger bother so he can do everything that he does, my oldest son wants to be 16 so he can be in high school and drive. If they only knew just how great they have it. For the most part, their lives are pretty darn good. sI wish they knew just how much they will miss being a kid. I want them to enjoy their childhood because before they know it, REALITY STRIKES...
Now I am not saying that I want to keep my kids in a bubble or that I don't enjoy being an adult but as you get older, the ugly truth does come out. Life can sometimes throw you a curve ball. It is not alway puppies and rainbows... There are things in life that can Rock you to the core...Things, once out of the box, can never be put back. I learned that pretty early in my adult life. My mom was diagnosed with cancer when I was 22. Stage 4 Lung Cancer to be exact. Just hearing those words, I knew my life would never be the same. It was the hardest 10 months of my life but I was there for the good, the bad, and the Ugly...As much as I wish it didn't happen to her, I wouldn't have changed the last 10 months of her life. It is funny how in your darkest hour, joy can be present. I learned so much from her in those last days. I was grateful to have that time.
Her loss changed me in so many ways. I think I am a better mother and wife but I am also more aware that things can chance in a minute. I do try to cherish every day and be present in everything that I do.
The Ugly truth is that people get sick, people die, bad things happen to good people.... So, when it's good, I try to savor every moment.
Now I am not saying that I want to keep my kids in a bubble or that I don't enjoy being an adult but as you get older, the ugly truth does come out. Life can sometimes throw you a curve ball. It is not alway puppies and rainbows... There are things in life that can Rock you to the core...Things, once out of the box, can never be put back. I learned that pretty early in my adult life. My mom was diagnosed with cancer when I was 22. Stage 4 Lung Cancer to be exact. Just hearing those words, I knew my life would never be the same. It was the hardest 10 months of my life but I was there for the good, the bad, and the Ugly...As much as I wish it didn't happen to her, I wouldn't have changed the last 10 months of her life. It is funny how in your darkest hour, joy can be present. I learned so much from her in those last days. I was grateful to have that time.
Her loss changed me in so many ways. I think I am a better mother and wife but I am also more aware that things can chance in a minute. I do try to cherish every day and be present in everything that I do.
The Ugly truth is that people get sick, people die, bad things happen to good people.... So, when it's good, I try to savor every moment.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
This Boy
How is it that I feel that in the time it takes to write this sentence feels exactly like how much time has passed for my firstborn to be graduating from 5th grade? Where has the time gone? It seems like yesterday, I was knee deep in poopy diapers and spit up and now, he is a beautiful, kind,and generous young man.
He is the one that helped me learn to be a mama.. He is the one that helped me heal when my heart was broken from losing my own mother...
He is now growing up and I have to accept it.
I will start to loosen my grip but for now, we got to enjoy his last field trip. A ride on the Miss Buffalo. I am lucky because Anthony is not embarassed by me. He actually likes when I am at his field trips or activities... Most kids don't want their parents within a 10 foot range. I am LUCKY and I embrass this. This boy loves him Mama...
I was glad to be a part of this trip. It is a rite of passage for them. It is amazing to see how much they have all grown since Kindergarten.
I am sure Anthony will leave elementary school with fond memories. He has built some really strong friendships that I hope last a life time.
I wish nothing but the best for you, Anthony... As much as you think you are growing, you will always be my baby. It might take me a while to loosen that grip, but it s just because I love you so much. I wish I could freeze time and be able to savor this moment. You are an amazing young man and nothing but greatness is in store for you!! I am proud to e your Mom and love you with all my heart.
He is the one that helped me learn to be a mama.. He is the one that helped me heal when my heart was broken from losing my own mother...
He is now growing up and I have to accept it.
I will start to loosen my grip but for now, we got to enjoy his last field trip. A ride on the Miss Buffalo. I am lucky because Anthony is not embarassed by me. He actually likes when I am at his field trips or activities... Most kids don't want their parents within a 10 foot range. I am LUCKY and I embrass this. This boy loves him Mama...
I was glad to be a part of this trip. It is a rite of passage for them. It is amazing to see how much they have all grown since Kindergarten.
I am sure Anthony will leave elementary school with fond memories. He has built some really strong friendships that I hope last a life time.
I wish nothing but the best for you, Anthony... As much as you think you are growing, you will always be my baby. It might take me a while to loosen that grip, but it s just because I love you so much. I wish I could freeze time and be able to savor this moment. You are an amazing young man and nothing but greatness is in store for you!! I am proud to e your Mom and love you with all my heart.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Blogging
I really wish I knew what the hell I was doing when setting up this page... It is exhausting!!!
Evan
On March 31st, Evan turned 7. (I know, it has taken me a week to get to this post) My blond hair, blue eyed beauty is turning into a little man. He is definitely a clone of his father in every way.
I can't believe he is 7 already. He is every parents dream. He is kind, generous, polite, respectful, good in school, funny, and athletic. I could have asked for anything more in this little boy.
He brings me such joy.
This year we celebrated with his brother Nicholas because their birthdays are one week apart from each other. Being the awesome big brother that he is, Evan did not mind.
The only thing he requested was a Buffalo Sabres cake. And a Sabres Cake he had.
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The party was fantastic. We got to celebrate with all of our family and friends. He loved the presents too...
I can't believe he is 7 already. He is every parents dream. He is kind, generous, polite, respectful, good in school, funny, and athletic. I could have asked for anything more in this little boy.
He brings me such joy.
This year we celebrated with his brother Nicholas because their birthdays are one week apart from each other. Being the awesome big brother that he is, Evan did not mind.
The only thing he requested was a Buffalo Sabres cake. And a Sabres Cake he had.
.
The party was fantastic. We got to celebrate with all of our family and friends. He loved the presents too...
Friday, March 25, 2011
Nicholas turns 1
Well, it happened, in a blink of an eye, my baby boy turned 1. How could 1 full year have gone by already? I remember like it was yesterday being in labor. Waiting and praying that Nicholas would be okay. Nicholas was measuring much bigger than my other two so they thought there might be complications with the delivery. I remember the moment they told me that I could grab him and I did. I pulled him to my chest and cried and kissed him and told him just how much I loved him. I cried because it was done. He was safe and healthy and in my arms. I will hold that moment forever in my heart. That began our love affair....
I cannot tell you how much that boy fills my heart with love. I can't even believe that we waited so long. He is an angel sent from heaven. He has been good since the day he was born. He hardly ever cries and when he does, it is usually able to be fixed in minutes. He is usually hungry or tired. He smile fills the room and his laugh is contangious. He is the craziest, curliest hair I have ever seen and beautiful brown eyes that I can stare in forever. I know that momma's are not suppose to have their favorites but I have to say, that boy melts my heart. (Even though all three of them have had the #1 spot on time or another and I am pretty sure tha will continue forever :))... It has been such a joy to get to know Nicolas. His little personality. The way he loves his paci and his blanket. The way he gets all excited in them morning when I get him out of bed or the way he snuggles with me right before he goes to bed. There are so many things I love about him, I could go on forever... I just can't believe my last baby is already 1. No more newborn, no more little baby.. He is growing up... I enjoy every minute of being his momma and look forward to the journey ahead.... There is nothing I enjoy more than being a mom to my 3 boys... My cup is definitely half full!!!!
(Happy Birthday, Nick)
(The Cake)
(The demolition of the cake)
(Our family)
(After Nick destroyed the cake)
(Nick's daycare party)
(Nick on his official birthday with his brothers)
I cannot tell you how much that boy fills my heart with love. I can't even believe that we waited so long. He is an angel sent from heaven. He has been good since the day he was born. He hardly ever cries and when he does, it is usually able to be fixed in minutes. He is usually hungry or tired. He smile fills the room and his laugh is contangious. He is the craziest, curliest hair I have ever seen and beautiful brown eyes that I can stare in forever. I know that momma's are not suppose to have their favorites but I have to say, that boy melts my heart. (Even though all three of them have had the #1 spot on time or another and I am pretty sure tha will continue forever :))... It has been such a joy to get to know Nicolas. His little personality. The way he loves his paci and his blanket. The way he gets all excited in them morning when I get him out of bed or the way he snuggles with me right before he goes to bed. There are so many things I love about him, I could go on forever... I just can't believe my last baby is already 1. No more newborn, no more little baby.. He is growing up... I enjoy every minute of being his momma and look forward to the journey ahead.... There is nothing I enjoy more than being a mom to my 3 boys... My cup is definitely half full!!!!
(Happy Birthday, Nick)
(The Cake)
(The demolition of the cake)
(Our family)
(After Nick destroyed the cake)
(Nick's daycare party)
(Nick on his official birthday with his brothers)
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