I sometimes catch my kids saying that they wish they were older. My 7 year old wants to be as old as his bigger bother so he can do everything that he does, my oldest son wants to be 16 so he can be in high school and drive. If they only knew just how great they have it. For the most part, their lives are pretty darn good. sI wish they knew just how much they will miss being a kid. I want them to enjoy their childhood because before they know it, REALITY STRIKES...
Now I am not saying that I want to keep my kids in a bubble or that I don't enjoy being an adult but as you get older, the ugly truth does come out. Life can sometimes throw you a curve ball. It is not alway puppies and rainbows... There are things in life that can Rock you to the core...Things, once out of the box, can never be put back. I learned that pretty early in my adult life. My mom was diagnosed with cancer when I was 22. Stage 4 Lung Cancer to be exact. Just hearing those words, I knew my life would never be the same. It was the hardest 10 months of my life but I was there for the good, the bad, and the Ugly...As much as I wish it didn't happen to her, I wouldn't have changed the last 10 months of her life. It is funny how in your darkest hour, joy can be present. I learned so much from her in those last days. I was grateful to have that time.
Her loss changed me in so many ways. I think I am a better mother and wife but I am also more aware that things can chance in a minute. I do try to cherish every day and be present in everything that I do.
The Ugly truth is that people get sick, people die, bad things happen to good people.... So, when it's good, I try to savor every moment.
